All My Friends Are Drifting Away
I used to have a very close knit group of friends. We would chat via an app each day. Post funny quotes for each other to make sure we were chipper and when necessary we would all commiserate with each other if any of us had anything go wrong.
I had been thinking that maybe my friends don’t like me anymore. That maybe I’m not a good enough friend for them. That maybe . . . and then I realised. It’s not that they don’t “like” me anymore, it’s that I’m different now. I’m resonating differently in the world today to what I was 6 months ago.
I chose to stop talking about the things that weren’t going well for me. I chose to not focus on them anymore. I did what I had to do to make things right and then I set those things aside and chose to focus on the things that I actively wanted in my future. I have chosen to take steps towards those things.
Interestingly from the outside I believe this looks like I am drifting, directionless and rudderless and I guess to a degree it is. But for someone who has spent her whole life on a very controlled and well planned out path, been prepared for any potential disastrous eventuality (because there used to be no need to prepare for anything good, it was always some drama that lurked around the corner, not serendipity) to suddenly stop planning and purposefully NOT set out where she is going, or make a firm decision about what she is going to do is a very big step to take and does sort of look as though I've lost the plot.
It took me a good few months to get used to it. And I am now happy to say that it finally feels really really good. I love knowing I have time on my hands and can spend it in any way I please. In terms of money the universe is currently providing for me and I believe it will continue to do so.
So I continue to be thankful everyday for the chance to walk Reuben, catch up with different friends who are more aligned with my resonance these days, and thank the friends who I no longer connect with as much for the lessons their friendships have given me, for without them I wouldn’t be where I am today.